Happy Birthday Alex!

You turn 4 years old today Alex!!! It is really hard for me to believe! I feels like yesterday we moved back to Utah, you had just turned 1 and loved exploring our new house. The stairs were all new and after one tumble down them you quickly learned to go down backwards instead of stepping straight down. Now we are close to selling this home and it makes me sad to think that our "first home" will belong to someone else. To me, this is the home that you really grew up in. You were a tiny baby in New Jersey, but you became a toddler, and now a preschooler, in this home. I will always love this home for those memories.

Four years ago we were staying at Grammy and Grampy's house waiting for the phone call that you were born. I answered the telephone and heard you crying in the background!! What a glorious sound that was! It also made me want to throw up a little bit (bad memories of your sister as a newborn!). I was so excited to have a little boy and I felt like your mother from the moment I laid eyes on you! It took a little while to feel like Samantha's mommy since being a mom and adoption were so new to me, but having been through it once I instantly felt like YOUR mom when I saw you. You also kind of startled me!! For some reason I thought you were going to be the darkest of the bunch. I expected dark brown hair and brown eyes. Instead, this heavenly little face with blue eyes and blonde hair stared up at me!! WHAT??? Over the years your hair has gotten darker, but your eyes are still as blue and, truth be told, they MELT me! There is something special about the mommy/son relationship and ours is no exception. I know without a doubt that you adore me and I am quite certain you know how much I adore you! We are best friends! I always ask you if you are going to love me and be my best friend even when you are older and you always reply YES with a big hug around my neck! I pray that is true!

You are also a pretty stubborn little stink sometimes! You like to be dramatic (shocker, I know) and throw yourself on the ground when you don't get what you want, but once you've settled down and ask me to sit on the couch with you, I forget all about the tantrum as you snuggle into my arm and I kiss the top of your head. I like to call you Dennis the Menace sometimes because you just CAN NOT resist touching things you shouldn't and tearing things apart!! Just this morning I spent about 30 minutes putting together your Hot Wheels Shark Park toy only to have you tear it all apart after about an hour. I'm hoping that your fascination with tearing things apart will lead you to wondering how they get put back together and you have a successful, great career as an engineer or something!!! A mother's dream I suppose! I think you are such a smart little fella and I know that you will do well in whatever interests you. You are not a quitter and that will take you a long way in this life!!!

I just love you to pieces, Alex!!! I am so proud of you and so happy that we are blessed to be your parents! You have challenged us in so many ways and yet brought us so much happiness. Happy Birthday Baby!